A new Christmas Angel graced Heaven today

My darling friend Terrilyn became an angel for real this morning just before 8 AM. I knew this was gonna suck, but knowing that that kind woman is no longer thinking of me and wishing me well makes a much larger hole in my life than I anticipated.

At least her suffering is over. We let our pets go quickly but not our people; but that's a rant for another day.

RIP Terri. I will keep in touch with your Mom and your man like I promised I would.

My 42

I've been alive almost half a century now... damn, that went quick! And as I get older, I've shed some of my old belief systems and most of what I was taught to believe as a white Christian in the Mid West to form my own version of faith & religion.  I believe I am still a Christian, although I'd become a Buddhist in a heartbeat if it weren't for that non-violence system they have in place.

For what it's worth, here is what I believe:

• I believe there is a higher power that has shaped this world and this universe, and It more or less knows what It's doing.
• I believe that It formed the Universe as a living thing with its own agenda, and that the Universe is doing what it needs to do.
  
• I believe that It developed us with sentience, abundant resources, and free will, and from let us take it from there.
• I believe that It developed good and evil  as a test for us to find balance in our world, because It obviously thought mere survival wasn't enough of a challenge!
  
• I believe that It pays you off for your troubles, and gets you back for your sins. 
• I believe that this life is just part of our soul's journey, and that there is more to come.

More on this later.....

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8/16/2009

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This is my darling friend, Terri Lynn. We met in 1979 at our first college, and have kept in touch ever since.

This photo is over four years old, taken before the cancer started in 2006. I want to show the world my beautiful friend, and tell everyone how brave she is being and how proud I am of her.

She is currently in hospice, and I'm driving 150 miles once a week now to see her...it's all we can do at this point, spend as much time together as possible. I'm working on making sure her mother and her husband are supported as much as possible during this very difficult part of life's dance.

Thank you, sweet Terri, for reminding me of what living is all about. I love you.